The Center Cannot Hold

Writer's Block: The Eternal Nocturnal Struggle

2008-06-13T11:04:44Z

Vampires or werewolves?

Werewolves

akashicrecord @ 2008-06-11T06:01:00

2008-06-10T20:15:23Z

Friends.

I went crazy last night. Something is happening in the sky. I'm going back to bed in a moment because when I sleep seems to be the only time I can truly shut my brain down.

Note to self: Never, NEVER fuck around with your meds AGAIN. They are powerful beyond measure.

Writers Block

2008-06-08T05:27:40Z

What should cheese go on, and what should cheese NOT go on?

Cheese should go on cats and stereos. It should not go on Elephants or TVs.

Wayward Mariner Lone and Visionary on the High Seas of Chance and Possibility

2008-06-08T05:26:04Z

My A-Z

What does this say about me?

Abilify
Benzodiazepine Family
Clozapine
Diazepam
Ear
Friend
Green
Hello
Its
Jester
Kryptonite
Labyrinth
Memo, Mariner
Note
Open
Perfect
Question
Radical
Schizophrenic
Thesis
Uratia
Vagabond, Visionary
Wayward
Uncertain
Xanax
Yes
Zyprexa

Paranoia

2008-06-06T02:54:47Z

My paranoia has been playing up a bit. I think I do tend to get pretty iffy sometimes. For one thing, I think people can read my mind and hear my thoughts. I think the electrical appliances around me can pick up on my thoughts and it is being broadcast through to the people who own this hotel so they know my every move. I think there are spy cameras in this room too. I am not kidding.

akashicrecord @ 2008-05-21T18:50:00

2008-05-22T08:51:23Z

Testing TEsting

akashicrecord @ 2008-05-07T01:07:00

2008-05-06T15:34:12Z

I have so much to write but no energy to write it.

akashicrecord @ 2008-04-27T08:42:00

2008-04-26T22:39:21Z

I have a container of dirt in my den and I ask it how it is and it says 'you know I am actually feeling alright today'

akashicrecord @ 2008-04-21T06:52:00

2008-04-20T20:47:41Z

Another year older 23 jesus.

akashicrecord @ 2008-04-10T18:27:00

2008-04-10T08:38:46Z

upping my SSRIs

akashicrecord @ 2008-04-05T17:24:00

2008-04-05T06:19:00Z

I CHANGED MY LAYOUT IT LOOKS FANTASTIC

I'm too tired to write anything.

akashicrecord @ 2008-03-14T06:11:00

2008-03-13T19:16:15Z

Woke up after a nightmare I can't remember very well... bawling my eyes out for about an hour. The pain I felt was so intense and crippling. I'm freezing, exhausted, and I'm terrified about these new meds. They sound so risky and I'm so scared it has come to this because I can't hold it together on my own. I fought them tooth and nail for months to resist meds but now I fear it may be my only option. It's a death sentence in a way. Society has put me in the 'too hard' basket.

How did it get to 6:30am! I woke up at 5:00am thinking I had heaps of time before I had to leave but apparently not, I will be out the door in 1/2 an hour.

akashicrecord @ 2008-03-09T20:54:00

2008-03-09T09:49:03Z

IM GOING TO THE MOON WHERE NO BODY GOES

IM GOING TO THE MOON WHERE NO BODY KNOWS

akashicrecord @ 2008-03-02T17:10:00

2008-03-02T06:11:11Z

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akashicrecord @ 2008-03-01T20:10:00

2008-03-01T10:07:51Z

1. How many guys/girls did you kiss in 2007?
Don't know

2. Are you single?
Yep

3. Have you cried today at all?
3 times, bad day, freaked out.

4. Do you hate anyone or despise someone?
No

5. Do you miss your ex?
My ex coworkers @ Vision? F*ck no!

6. Do you actually believe in perfection?
Whats that

7. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
Sunny

8. Have you been to New York City?
Nope

9. What is the last thing you do before you go to sleep?
Take Valium ('downers')

10. Do you take any medication?
Valium, Cipramil, and Amphetamines (sudden cardiac arrest, here I come!)

11. Last time you did laundry?
A while ago

12. Describe your dream guy/girl?
Don't know

13. Do you fight with your parents all the time?
Not really, but they restrain me and give me drugs when I go crazy

14. What did you do last night?
I got home really late and took 2 Valiums, that's all I remember, and had weird dreams.

15. Last message you recieved?
Something from my Early Psychosis Clinician about my next appointment at the Clinic

16. What are you looking forward to most?
Graduating from uni and getting a job I love in Theatre maybe

17. Where did you sleep last night?
I'm not sure

18. Do you have any jewelry on?
No

20. Where is your phone?
In my bag should be on the charger

22. What is your brother's name?
John

24. Favorite sit down restaurant?
Centanove

25. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Sort of

26. Do you wear contacts?
No

27. Do you have your wisdom teeth?
Yes

28. When is your next road trip?
Soon

29. What are you listening to?
TV

30. Last time you did volunteer work or made any donation?
Soon probably am volunteering at the Monash Galleries and participating in a Medical Research Study ($5000 incentive yay) and maybe taking time off work and applying for disability payments @ Centrelink, am full time at uni now.

31. Who is the 3rd person you got a missed call from on your cell phone?
Vanessa

33. Do you get nervous with public speaking?
I don't mind it occasionally and people tell me I'm good at it but yes I get a bit nervous

34. Ever been in a wedding?
Yes my sisters in 1999 I was a Bridesmaid

35. Myspace or facebook?
Facebook is my poison

36. Who sits next to you in school?
Random yet amazing people who happen to be just as crazy as me, I attract them

37. What type of guy/girl do you think you are?
A square peg in a round hole

38. Last time you saw your parents?
A few minutes ago they are watching TV

39. What woke you up this morning?
The clock beep beep time to get up early for no reason because I have too many drugs in my system and they are messing up my sleeping patterns

40. What was the last thing you ate?
Pasta and ricotta cheese

41. Are you a fast typer?
Very

42. What are you doing tonight?
Taking Valiums and going to bed

43. Is anything bothering you?
Yes the fact that I am not really dealing with my real problems and I have a prescription drug addiction now

44. Do you miss someone?
I miss lots of people

45. What do you want right now?
A massive inheritance or lottery win would be a load off my mind

46. Are you listening to music now?
No TV

47, Are you in a bad mood?
No I'm wound up ready for drugs

48. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
I have a MSN conversation going

50. Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
Heaps of times

51. Are you a jealous person?
No

52. What are you allergic to?
Mosquito Bites

53. Whose car were you in last?
My own

54. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
8

55. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
Last time I was hearing voices, hallucinating and terrified to sleep in my own bed, there was some weird medical show on TV that was also freaking me out

56. What are some things that are needed in a relationship?
Honesty, communication, and freedom.

57. Have you ever dated one of your best friends?
No

59. When was the last time you did something secretively and didn't tell anyone?
Yes I am not really being honest with my 'carers' to my detriment because really I am the one who suffers.

62. Who is in the house with you?
Mum Dad cat and the dog and I used to have birds and fish but they were too high maintainence especially cleaning out that god damn stinking fish tank before work on Saturday mornings.

63. Have you ever travelled outside of the U.S?
Hopefully one day

64. What's most appealing thing about the opposite sex?
They are all so different it's hard to pin down a single quality.

65. Last text message in your inbox?
'Lol same old. You have a new family? Wt? Lol I wanna see my mum. Haha how's every1 at b/l? I miss some of em. So wat you doin at uni now? Only workin at the museum?' - Kym

akashicrecord @ 2008-02-26T17:50:00

2008-02-26T06:45:11Z

I'm freaking out.

Not even Valium can help me now.

Stream of Consciousness on Valium Part 2

2008-02-20T20:41:17Z

La La La La La

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Of Interest

2008-01-28T21:49:51Z

Sidereal vs Tropical Astrology

Why Sidereal should be adopted.
by Winterhawk
w / introduction by Wyn Summerhawk

I'm no astrologist by any stretch of the imagination. I know enough to realize that more matters than my Sun sign. I have to get a computer to do my charts for me because the math gets me tying my thumbs in knots. Still, something astrological has got my knickers in a twist. I've always trusted the Tropical system that makes me a Sagittarius. I seem to fit some of the descriptions of what one born under that Sun sign should be, and Libra ascendant explains some things about my behaviors.
Then I find out that the Tropical system is based on where the stars were a long time ago. Its not where they are now. The Sidereal system takes into account the movements of the constellations. The Sidereal system makes me a Scorpio. Every trait ends up being explained or described by the placements of planets in my chart under this system. My whole personality and the things I undergo show up accurately in the Sidereal calculations. What this tells me is the system works. I suppose I would have to have two astrologists of equally high caliber do a reading for me in the two systems and compare the results to be absolutely convinced that I am either a Sag or a Scorpio.

The bigger questions and concerns come to me when I consider the implications of using tropical calenders to determine Moon Void of Course. I've often gone by my feelings in choosing appropriate times to work magick, and found myself most comfortable and successful in times that showed up later to be Voids while magick done in a tropical Moon in Sign period proved duds. In fact much has gone awry when I was careful to do everything by the book under a Tropical Moon in Sign.

I started using a computerized astronomy chart to figure out where the Moon was. It turned out that the Tropical charts are off a great deal of the time from where the Moon really is in the sky. I'm going with Sidereal. Its accurate. Maybe I am a Scorpio. Its not all that important to me what my chart's doing but it matters a great deal what the sky is up to when I'm working magick. As I said, I am no Astrologist, so I give you Winterhawk who is one, to explain in technical terms what the differences are and why they are so important. Wyn Summerhawk

Needless to say the above story got me thinking as well. Recently a friend who is into Sidereal Astrology asked me to open in my Tropical Ephemeris, look up the position for the Moon, do the math to get the position for local time and look to see if the Moon was in that constellation outside. I did but, IT WASN'T!! I checked my math. My math was correct. I checked the ephemeris against my favorite program, Astrolog. It's coordinates were just fine and matched the program but, the planet wasn't there in reality. What happened?

Tropical Astrology is based on an imaginary point in space that the Earth comes to every spring. The Vernal Equinox, March 21st. That imaginary point is what keeps the seasons in their place and all Gregorian calendars are aligned to it every March 21st. (This is also why we have leap year.)

Before we go further, let me explain what Tropical and Sidereal are in scientific terms. (Not too scientific though)

Sidereal, or stellar, time is a system of time reckoning based on the rotation of the Earth with respect to the celestial sphere, the imaginary sphere of the heavens surrounding us. As the Earth rotates, one sidereal day is the time that it takes for a star to again pass directly above a given observation point. Sidereal time is used in astronomical work. The sidereal day is about four minutes shorter than the solar day. More precisely, 1 mean solar day = 1.0027379093 sidereal days. An observer's local meridian is the great circle passing through the observer's zenith and the celestial poles. The angle measured westward from this meridian to the hour circle is called the hour angle (HA) of the star. The hour angle of the vernal equinox is defined as the local sidereal time of the observer; therefore, right ascension + hour angle = sidereal time. Sometimes, in place of delta, the north polar distance (NPD) is used; this is the angle measured from the north pole to the star.

Since the vernal equinox and equator are not fixed, because of PRECESSION, it is necessary to specify at what date or epoch the coordinates were measured. For instance, on the vernal equinox (Spring or March 21) in the year 221, if you were to look up in the sky at noon on that date in Greenwich , England Aries would be right above your head at 0x. If you go out on March 21, 1996 at noon in Greenwich and look up you'll see 6x of Pisces. That's what precession does.

The Tropical year is the period of time of one revolution of the Earth around the Sun measured between successive vernal equinoxes. It equals 365.24220 mean solar days, or 365 days, 5 hours, 48 minutes, 46 seconds. Also called the solar year or the year of the seasons, the tropical year is the basis of the calendar. This is why winter happens in the northern hemisphere between December and March.

A year is a division of time defined basically by the period of revolution of the Earth around the Sun. Various kinds of astronomical years and calendar years have been defined. The astronomical year of chief importance to most of today's astrologers is the tropical year, which is the time interval between successive occurrences of the spring equinoxes. This is what keeps Aries at 0x. But, this is also an imaginary point.

A year is now about 365.2422 mean solar, or civil, days, the number decreasing very slowly as a result of small, progressive changes in the Earth's rotational speed and its orbit about the Sun. The seasons repeat, on the average, in this interval. The sidereal year, determined by the Earth's position with respect to the stars, is 365.25636 mean solar days which means that the year goes on a tiny bit longer every year. It is longer than the tropical year because it is not subject to the shortening effects of precession though it should be. This is what causes the vernal equinoxes to slowly go backwards in the signs.

If the vernal equinox occurs in Greenwich, England at 6x Pisces in 1996 then why are all the tropical astrologers trying to tell me that it's 0x Aries? If I go to my window and look up at the sky on that day in Greenwich I'll see the constellation Pisces!! When I was born using sidereal calculations for Chicago and my parents looked up at that second they would have seen the Sun in 10x Aries NOT 3x Taurus.

I'm not saying that spring should occur at 0x Aries.. That would put it somewhere in April... I think that the imaginary point that the Gregorian calendar is set to is great for the reference of changing seasons / Sabbots but, it is not a good idea for reference to astrology. The energy that is being produced by such and such a planet being in a sign does not follow any imaginary point. It just is! Summer in the Northern Hemisphere is Winter in the Southern.

Ptolemy, the father of todays astrology never heard of tropical astrology. He went out on his balcony and looked up. If Jupiter was in Cancer it was in Cancer. This change from Sidereal to Tropical Astrological systems can't quite be pinned down. Some texts say that it occurred in the 1600's others say that Tropical gained acceptance somewhere in 1800's when Greenwich, England was chosen as the place of 0 hour. I might also suggest that the split between Astrology and Astronomy was due to that imaginary point. While astrologers made their mathematical computations to always put Aries at 0x on March 21st, astronomers were looking through their telescopes and shaking their heads saying, "I beg to differ.. Here.. Take a look for yourself". By today's standards the zodiac is now off by 24x

Cyril Fagan came upon the same conclusion in 1944. He spent the last 26 years of his life trying to convince astrologers of the tropical zodiac that the fixed sidereal zodiac was the one to be looked at when casting anyone's charts. In his book, A Primer of Sidereal Astrology he explained in even more complicated terms, but never the less, convincingly the how's and whys of what is being discussed herein. Not to many people listened. I personally think he tried to simplify too much. Later Eshelman and Stanton carried on his work and began to attract followers to sidereal astrology with their book, The New Instant Astrologer.

Ask yourself this question, "How come when someone does my chart they just don't quite get it"? With an astrological system off by 24x there would by a load of room for error. Sun would be off by 24x, rising sign would be off.. therefore the houses will be off.. etc, etc. This also means that the planets used in Tropical Astrology are off by 24x. (Ever wonder why astronomers are laughing at astrologers?).

Alas, this also means that the predictions given by Tropical astrologers are off by years. I can hear it now...Wait, wait, wait.. Hawk.. where's your proof? Just by chance I picked up a book called Astrological Megatrends by Kluska. What he predicts (Tropically....then) is happening Sidereally now. This is to say he was early in his predictions.

Example: Tropically Uranus is in Aquarius, Sidereally it just entered Capricorn. Kluska's predictions for Uranus in Capricorn are NOW coming true not ten years ago. He predicted that everyone would have computers in 1988, when in reality only 15% of the population had them. Look around you now. Nearly 65% to 70% of the population has them.. and their all connected to the inter net.(Uranus).

Example: Tropically Neptune is supposed to go into Aquarius in January of 1998. Sidereally, it's 4xCapricorn. What Kluska predicted for the Congress never happened until the 90's. This is when Neptune's rays started to effect us. (Planets rays = +/- 3x of a sign on average).

Example: Tropically Pluto just entered Sagittarius. Sidereally it just entered Scorpio. This doesn't bode well. What was supposed to happen when Pluto entered Scorpio that didn't when the tropicalists said it would is now happening. Look at the news. Things like investigations of the FBI, Congress looking at the Clinton's... Privacy issues on the inter net, all the extreme things going on NOW are products of Pluto in Scorpio.

As of late, some astrologers put the date of the age of Aquarius at 1987 with the great alignment. I disagree. If we're using the PRECESSION as the date it won't be here until 2356. Mark it on your calendars. That's when the Spring Equinox will take place at 29x Aquarius 59'.

If we as a magickal community are going to use the powers that are available to us through history we should make every effort to ensure that they are correct. Sidereal Moon void of courses, the sign a planet is in and the timing of the aspects are NOT the same as tropical, although the actual aspects themselves are, i.e., when Neptune is square Moon tropically or sidereally...it is. The definitions of the signs, planets, or aspects are still the same. The only difference is the actual timing.

Now when I do a sidereal chart to see if the Moon is void (don't want to do spells when it is) and the chart tells me that the Moon is in Cancer; I can go outside, look up, and sure enough that's where She is!!

akashicrecord @ 2008-01-28T20:11:00

2008-01-28T09:51:35Z

Rose Quartz or Amethyst Wand? Hermatite bracelet, sandstone necklace, Pendants: Labradorite (sp?), Carnelian (red), Malachite (blue-green, bright), a few others in there I can't remember. The slightly transperant, grey pendant is.. um I don't know. I knew what it was when I bought it about 2 years ago. There is also a Phoenix, the gold pendant at the front.

I plan to add to this collection, there goes my next pay packet.

akashicrecord @ 2008-01-26T08:48:00

2008-01-25T21:53:09Z

I've lost faith in humanity.

akashicrecord @ 2008-01-16T03:58:00

2008-01-15T17:20:13Z

In 2008, akashicrecord resolves to...

Learn to play the prozac.
Go walking three times a week.
Admit my true feelings to yourperfectlie.
Connect with my inner dna.
Keep my saturn clean.
Become a better nutrition.

hahaha

akashicrecord @ 2008-01-09T07:11:00

2008-01-08T20:15:20Z

The Far Side of Madness, by John Weir Perry.
Dallas, TX: Spring Publications, 1989.)

The terror of psychosis–and the terrifying treatments to which the “mental patient” is subjected–remains a source of bafflement to the outsider and a source of frustration to many practitioners in the mental health field. Although the literature is fraught with descriptions of symptoms, diagnoses, theories, and methods of treatment, few researchers address the patient as an equal. Rare, indeed, is the practitioner who has come to view psychosis as a strange sign of health: as an attempt to heal or as a stage in a developmental process that transports the subject beyond sickness or health and into a positive transformation of the self.

Such an exception is John Weir Perry. His Far Side of Madness remains a classic in the field for all these reasons. Working in the lonely tradition of Carl Jung and R.D. Laing, who each viewed psychosis as potentially purposive and telic in nature, Perry describes the goals–and the terrible dangers–that are typically encountered in the psychotic journey.

Perry’s work in traditional psychiatric settings led him to conclude that those in the thrall of an acute psychotic episode are rarely listened to or met on the level of their visionary state of consciousness. Instead, every imaginable way to silence the patients–to ignore and to disapprove of their nonrational language and experience–was called into play, thereby increasing their sense of isolation, alienation, and so-called madness. (Although the book was first published in 1974, things have not substantially changed in state mental hospitals or in community residence settings. To explore the strange imagery of psychosis with a client in a counseling session is viewed as “feeding into their delusional system,” and it is discouraged by psychiatrists and social workers.)

Perry’s work with those in acute stages of psychosis revealed that their pre-psychotic personalities were the true source of the “sickness.” Forced to live an emotionally impoverished life, the psyche had reacted by forcing a transformation in the form of a “compensating” psychosis, during which a drama in depth was enacted, forcing the initiate to undergo certain developmental processes.

Such processes, which are accompanied by rich, emotional imagery, contain amazing parallels to classical myths and to obscure rituals of antiquity:

The individual finds himself living in a psychic modality quite different from his surroundings. He is immersed in a myth world ... His emotions no longer connect with ordinary things, but drop into concerns and titanic involvements with an entire inner world of myth and image.

Although the imagery is of a general, archetypal nature (“imagery that pertains to all men and all times”), it also symbolizes the key issues of the individual undergoing the crisis. Therefore, once lived through on this mythic plane, and once the process of withdrawal nears its end, the images must be linked to specific problems of daily life. Thus, the archetypal affect-images await a reconnection to their natural context: to the personal psychological complexes (which tend to be externally projected).

The notion of a “reorganization of the Self” is central to Perry’s approach to the psychotic journey. Extreme damage to the self-image (usually, through a mother’s withholding of love) was a typical problem in the cases he studied. The injury to the self-image is so severe that, during a crisis, psychic energy leaves the higher levels of consciousness and is attracted to the psychic depths, where an archetypal process of renewal commences. The goal is not only to restore self-esteem but also to engender a “capacity to love and be loved.”

For this to occur, there must be a connecting link with another human being (and not necessarily a link with a “professional”): one that instills warmth and trust. This will allow a forward progression of the inner-imagery (remi-niscent of Jung’s statement that a schizophrenic is no longer schizophrenic when he feels understood by someone else). Therefore, “analysis” seems (at least, at this stage) secondary to the basic human consideration of kindness. In place of an omniscient psychotherapist, Perry posits the autonomous psychic process as a crucial factor at this point in transformation.

Perry searched for and finally discovered a regular pattern of imagery and ideation in the psychotic process. The “negative self-image” is typically compensated by an “overblown” archetypal one, the latter manifesting in imagery such as that of the hero, clown, saint, ghost, or sovereign leader. In addition, there’s a sense of “participating in some form of drama or ritual performance.” Most significantly, ten sets of motifs emerged: symbols of the center; death; return to beginnings; cosmic conflict; the threat of the opposite sex; apotheosis; sacred marriage; new birth; new society; and the quadrated world.

Following the Jungian school of thought (from which Perry emerged), comparative symbolism and cross-cultural studies were used to uncover a holistic context, in order to view such motifs in a larger context. Further research led to the discovery of the same sequence of imagery in archaic religions and in other cultural structures. Most significant to the author is that “the myth and ritual form that resembles it is the principal and central rite of the civilizations of remote antiquity, and parallels the image sequence step for step.” That is, the “ceremonial pattern of sacral kingship,” found in the ancient Near East, the Mediterranean, Europe, and the Far East, which involves an annual renewal of the cosmos during the New Year.

The author devotes an entire chapter to the psychic significance of kingship, and he refers to its importance throughout The Far Side of Madness. Indeed, the correspondence is striking: in the New Year festivals, we find “a creation rite also emphasizing the center, the beginnings, death and renewal, the sacred combat and sacred marriage, and the other elements of the process.” The sacred functions of kingship represent a projection of “man’s spiritual potential as an individual.”

Once such functions were integrated in the collective psyche, the era of the sacred king gave way to a new era: one ushered in by “great prophets and founders of the great religions,” and characterized by a revaluation of the individual and of the Eros principle. Thus, kingship reflects an archetypal pattern of growth: one progressing through dismemberment, reconstitution, and the rebirth of psyche, paralleling the “outer” historical processes (which themselves were probably based on inner archetypal correlates) and culminating in the Eros principle (the return to love).

He places the advent of this era of exalting Eros at around “the middle of the first millennium B.C.,” and he refers to it as the “revolution of democratization.” The great prophets and mystics proceeding from that time–founders of culture and “heroes with a vision”–underwent eerie and turbulent psychic experiences. Afterward, they communicated a vision that was concerned not only with their own transformation but also with one within the societies of their time. The genuine depth experience, however, is never supported by society-at-large when in its “acute” stage. As has been noted by Perry and by others before him, the great prophets of old would have been locked up in psychiatric wards by today’s practitioners of “health.”

The point of Perry’s inquiry and of those in that lonely tradition I alluded to earlier (it might be called the Romantic tradition in psychology) is not to “diagnose” artists, prophets, and mystics–not to label or denigrate the highest human values and aspirations–but to reexamine such rich transformation processes and to value the cultural elements that enrich human life. Thus, “Rather than what is pathological in mysticism, we ask what is mystical in its intent in psychosis?” Perry concludes:

The content of the depths reached in the ultimate ecstasies is on the one hand illumination that enlarges the understanding, and on the other, rapture that fills the heart with lovingness.

The obsession of the schizophrenic with “social reform” is viewed as more than merely a “complaint against the faulty parental world.” For Perry, the schizophrenic’s ideation of a “new society” is a legitimate psychic concern that affects us all: a collective problem seeking a collective solution and one that especially manifests in psychotic and visionary states of consciousness. He asks:

With our secular governments, and with our diminishing trust in any generally accepted higher moral or spiritual authority … where do we find our real governance–one that involves us in depth? I consider this to be the modern problem that the archetypal psyche is wrestling with in order to produce a convincing new myth that will satisfy the need of the times.

The rebirth of society is based upon continual psychic upheaval: a renewal of the social archetype rooted in each individual psyche. It is there that we find the true matrix of history. And when social institutions become too rigid, it is there that we will uncover a creative means of overcoming them.

akashicrecord @ 2007-12-26T18:57:00

2007-12-26T08:15:55Z

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